One of the things that has fallen to the side over the years is my willingness to set aside time to write and record music, let alone just playing an instrument in general. It’s strange to see how my interests and priorities have changed as each year passes. Back in high school, I used to practice guitar for 6 hours a day. It was also at this time that I was developing my skills as a designer and artist. At the time, music seemed more fun and interesting to me and it was what I thought I would be doing for the rest of my life. Design was just something I did to supplement my insatiable thirst for learning new things and being self-reliant.
My initial choice out of high school was attending a college and getting a degree in music as a recording artist or engineer. Unfortunately that didn’t happen so I decided to pursue design instead. I was never a big fan of school in general and the thought of spending another 4 years of my life in school made me shiver. So I did what anyone in my position would’ve done and took a design class at a community college that somehow changed the course of my life.
After that one class, I was fully invested in the idea of making a living as a designer. A complete 180º in terms of where my focus was just a year prior. But even though I didn’t want to attend a 4 year college, I instead opted for a trade school in Burbank, CA that specialized in learning design and animation for TV and film. After 10 months, I was done and was now in search of a job. It only took 3 months of finishing school to land my first contract gig in Venice Beach which then led to a part-time job in Burbank, which then led to a full-time job at an agency in Venice Beach again.
It has now been 10 years since this whole process started. I graduated high school in 2008 and didn’t take that first design class until early 2009. And I didn’t attend that trade school until September 2009. Everything I’ve done and achieved up to this point in my career and life is probably 100% different from what it could’ve been had I chosen to go down the path of music.
I sometimes spend some time wondering what that life would’ve been like. What I wanted to do with music was either be a session guitarist that worked at a recording studio and play music on various albums or be a recording artist and write and perform my own music (which I have done in the past actually). In my early 20’s I played lots of backyard shows with my group of friends and it was some of the best times I’ve ever had in my life. But I imagine that could’ve been my life all the time.
This is not to say that I have completely abandoned music. It is still a very large part of my life. In fact I’m currently working in the music industry as a designer. So it’s like the best of both worlds. So music isn’t a passion I have given up on and let die suddenly. But sadly it seems as though it’s dying a slow death. Over the years I have continued to write and record music for myself and for others and it is a lot of fun. Although the older I get, the more it seems that its becoming less and less of a priority. I have current life goals relating to what my current interest are and for me to take the time out of my schedule to write and record music seems counter-productive and, as sad as it makes me to say it, a waste of time.
Which is a strange revelation because one of my favorite personal sayings is that time isn’t real and that we aren’t bound to any time limit. The reason I’m not too stressed about how I haven’t written or recorded any new music in over 2 years is because I know I will get back to it someday. It’s like a boomerang. My interests come and go and I usually end up picking back up where I left off eventually.
The one thing I am incredibly excited about in terms of music is that when I finally do get back to writing stuff again it’s that I know what kind of music I want to make. Thinking about it gets me super excited but I can’t make the time for it yet. If something is important to you, you will make time for it but currently, writing music isn’t as important to me as some of the other stuff I’m working on.
But one thing I am hopeful about is that what I wrote in my last post was that I am currently working on my daily life schedule and trying to get back into content-creation. I’m thinking that if I can make it work and if I can fit it into my schedule and among the things I want to create, I could potentially add writing music into the mix. So that is what is keeping me excited as of late.
But I digress. Writing all of this down was pretty fun. I took that photo of my guitars last week after I rearranged my desks to be at the opposite side of the room. So now when I’m working on stuff, like as I write this, my guitars are right in front of me. Taunting me. Almost as if they are daring me to get back to writing stuff sooner rather than later.